my mind, my thoughts, my life

{i am a hater rite now… of valentine’s day and all its pinky pinky heart-y attributes}

but! I think I could just be a nice person and share my thoughts about what to give on valentine’s day… okay… what do we have as options out there? box of chocolate, flowers arrangement, cakes, cards, or simply ‘i love u’s… today, i feel like talking about flowers {girls, cheers!!}

how many guys out there thinking of giving his lady some flowers this val? well, most of them… ‘what flowers?’ is the next question. so? what’s your choice? rose? {red, white, pink, yellow… any colors} lily? orchid?

the confusion of what-kind-of-flower-should-i-give usually ends up with a bouquet of roses… {nothing’s wrong with it… believe me…} just imagine… like thousands of guys bringing thousands of their lovers thousands of roses… {that’s a LOT of roses!} so, why not trying something a little different this year? again… i’m not saying that rose is out of date or what… it’s just a little too common. and it’s okay to go with common, but why not go with something extra special, something that’s only you and your lover’s… something that will leave extra mark for the day… remember this… When choosing a flower as a gift, consider how special the flower is to your lover and what message it communicates.

okay, without any further due… here’s the list of some flowers {i think…} might be a great choice for gift… {i think… again it’s just an opinion}

1. sun flower

sun flower?? {raised eye brow} i know… this is not a common flower… and it’s not even in the right color… yellow? it’s like the opposites of pink.

i love the boldness of sun flower. it’s like a statement. bright and happy… and big. of course this is not an easy choice… but i think it’s nice to see some happy colors instead of pink {and purple} during valentine’s day

2. carnation

carnation usually describes a fascination and divine love… but different colours go with different extra meanings. let’s say, pink carnation is more of an unconditional love, like a mother’s love or something like ‘i’ll never forget you’; while white carnation describes purity, faithfulness and inocence.

but the main reason i pick carnation is not because of those meanings… it’s a bonus. i love the layers inside carnation… it’s complicated yet remain subtle. a pure beauty!

3. lotus

this one is more of personal pick. i LOVE lotus {or water lily}, i just don’t know why… but the look of lotus is unique, and it’s easy to find through out Jakarta… Lotus grows on swamp, but it grows beautiful and strong. I wish all ladies out there remember this always… no matter where u came from, u could always bloom beautifully and grow strong!

4. ranunculus

the name Ranunculus is Late Latin for “little frog” from rana “frog”. this probably refers to many species being found near water, like frogs. most species in this family are poisonous when indigested. so be careful! they’re for your eyes only! no matter how pretty they look…

{the flower arrangement image was taken from design*sponge}

i’m not sure if there’s any ranunculus in jakarta… but i love how natural they look, so soft, loose and casual…

5. anemone

anemone is actually a ranunculus… but this one has a simpler petal… they are mostly herbaceous perennials with bright yellow or white flower (if white, still with a yellow centre) {don’t ask me what does herbaceous perennials mean… go ask wikipedia it’s some sort of plant that has leaves and stems that die down at the end of the growing season to the soil level…} okay!

anemone comes in shades of white, blue, pink or red but is distinguished by the blue/black center

i couldn’t get the white flower image.. so this is the best i could give…

now! why all the single flower?

note this “A single flower given is the best romantic gift. Especially on Valentines Day. Because it says you thought about me, about the fact that it was, in fact, Valentines day. But you didn’t feel that you needed an expensive bouquet to tell me how much you love me.” - sarah ryhanen of saipua

tell that to your florist.. and he/she will hate you for the rest of your life…

sunday 01.02.09

January is over, and don’t call me love no more

monday 02.02.09

prove me one thing

and that’s all I’ve ever asked

just one thing

and you’ve failed

you let me down

again and again…

tuesday 03.02.09

what if I still love you, you asked

I’d laugh, I said

looked you in the eyes and stated, you never love me in the first place

and how I wish you would, I cried silently

friday 06.02.09

I lied about don’t wanna see you again

I wish I could believe your sorry

I do

I wish wishes come true

they don’t

saturday 07.02.09

go wild, go crazy I told my heart

forget why, forget where I told my head

forgive me I told you

for there’s no second chance, it’s the last chance

it was…

so I dance solo tonight…

no! not lonely

just alone

solo…

monday 09.02.09

take me to the river, and drowned me there

watch me die

watch my dying breath

tuesday 10.02.09

I will survive

I have to survive

wednesday 11.02.09

lie to me, and shoot me in the heart

watch me die

watch me bleed to death

how much do you need a private space? i do need one, desperately!

no, no, no… not that much space… just a little space to do whatever i love to, with no interruption what-so-ever! it could be just a lazy afternoon tea or a whole night crying after a long argument and heartbreak, reflection time, snacking… people could pass me by, acting like i wasn’t there, and just don’t bother to ask what happen?

lovely!

so… last weekend, on a tiring journey to find us {me and my siblings} a new home, we visited a cluster around Pantai Indah Kapuk… well, i won’t write down the name of it {call me evil!} because i {still} wish we could afford the house… the marketing officer let us in one of the finished house {sadly, belong to someone else…} it was nice, with the famous split level thing-y… 3 bedrooms, which are perfect for us… but the thing that caught my eyes {and my heart} was this weird space next to the stairs. it was weird! and seemed useless {for most people but me} but i fell in love with it… and so the idea of having this private space popped out. that little area was perfect for my private space…

the area is about 3m long, 1m tall and about 60cm deep, with full glass on the end… have i mentioned this space is located between 2nd and 3rd level, next to the stairs, facing north.

i’ll give you the illustration…

cute, ain’t it?

okay, so this is what i imagined about how that space would look like {if it was mine…}

1. i’ll paint one of the wall yellow and add some white graphics, or i’ll just use similar wallpaper {i guess i’ll be to lazy to really paint the graphic all by myself}

2. fill it with pile of pillows, and one big mat so it’ll be comfy enough to sit all afternoon. some brown pillows and one lime green pillow as an accent

3. organize some of my favourites book, mags, novels on the other wall

4. put a vase or two, filled with beautiful flowers, i’m thinking of ranunculus or anemone, in dusty pink colour

5. put a lovely cut out board behind the books… it’s on the west side, so i imagined it’ll be very pretty when it catches afternoon light and shadow comes in various shapes, showering the flower arragements

6. put a wooden tray with nice white cups, for my cup of cafeine

7. plant a big tree with lush of leaves so birds will nest there and singing joyful songs ever morning…

the idea is sooooo lovely, i could fell me doing it this very afternoon… watching rain drops falling on leaves and beating my window, sipping my warm coffee and enjoying the smell of fresh cut flowers

and so, i’ve made my decision! i’ll not get married before my future husband has a home {just like i wanted! the hee}