what would you do when you really really need someone to talk to, to share thoughts, but you don’t?
i need to spit these words out of my mouth, my head, my heart… but i can’t
i need someone to listen to me
just listen, please don’t judge…
just listen, please don’t interrupt…
just listen, please don’t comment…
just listen, please don’t justify…
just listen, and be quiet
is it really that important to dress up nicely? i’ll go for properly dressed, though sometimes i still do some over-dressed and worst, saltum!
my style has changed, evolved and still does… i love how people around me influenced this particular style of mine. i try to look simple, but not plain. i like to see little details here and there, just in a perfect dose. something subtle, but would not lost in the crowd.
i HATE bling-y stuffs, even just a little bling, fake diamonds or payet would drive me crazy! no specific reason here, just personal taste.
i usualy pick t-shirts and jeans for an everday look {i know… booooring!!}, but i love mini skirt for going out. i have to admit, wearing minis could be very tricky. i’m so much aware of {the imperfection of} my body, i hate my thighs, my tummy, my arms, my armpits, and so on… i really really have to be in a good mood to decide that i’m going to wear minis.
so, in the mood of celebration {it’s Chinese New Year!} i decided to dress up a little nicer last weekend…
i LOVE the dress!
found it about 2 weeks ago while searching desperately for new clothes… i insisted to buy a {mini} dress, so i don’t have to buy another pair of new jeans. and it was never easy to look for a perfect dress. as again, it’s all me… {no, this one makes my thighs look gigantic; no, i have to hide these arm!; and so on} while walking around, wandering, i spotted this okay red dress {i mean RED, really red} and said to my sister; “if only they had other colors” and they do… the other colors are… ORANGE {almost terracotta}, BROWN {kinda reddis-brown, and a little too bright}, BLUE {almost navy blue, but brighter} and TURQOUIS {this was the worst, ever!}. I lost my hope, none of the colors suited me well, then suddenly, they gave me this one color, CREAM.
Yippyyyy!!!
this is what i reffer as simple details… things that is just enough…
HA! and i’m done…
okay! this post is just such a time-waster… so, for you all the i-have-nothing-better-to-do-today… this is just puurrrfect!
don’t we all love to touch up our pictures? just to make them look a little bit better {or waaay better} or us look great in taking pictures… well, i do! so while trying so hard to do something useful for myself yesterday, i found a cute {super cute!} website called picnik. the site itself, i have to admit, boost up the narsistic side of me {well for tirta, tegal, markus… i just have a bad bad feeling that you guys gonna like it as much as i do}
picnik provides us with some photo retouching effects, just like what photoshop does, and some extra effects like lomo-ish, 60’s and infra red film. interesting right? okay… to all of you who’s familiar with photoshop, this may sounds like “do’oh?!?”, but the cute thing is, you can save the picture and upload it right to your facebook or flicker account. it’s online, and you don’t have to be a photoshop expert to have fun here! just give it a try okay?
ow, you don’t have to register, just start upload your photos and have fun, and save it back to your computer or send it right to your account…
i tried it yesterday, and these are some of the results… {no extra photoshop thing-y here}
enjoy!
i wish i had a lomo camera
celebrity wannabe
let’s begin!
keep my fingers crossed and my hopes high
okay… to be honest, this is my first {organized} resolution ever! i never thought to do it so seriously before… and that’s the reason {i believe} why my past resolutions never came up the way i imagined them.
put it in a simple way… we all just want to be a better person. but how much better? better in what? and… how? i think this the way to start to be a better person myself.
i need to change lots of things {i mean really really need and really really lots} but this is {just} the begining… everything has to begin somewhere right? i need to love ME more, need to open my world bigger and bigger, need to stop {or lessen} complaining and listen more, and maybe… need to love my family better, need to find ways to communicate with them… but that’ll be too complicated to be done in just 356 days… won’t them? i narrowed things down to these final 4 resolutions of 2009… now, it seems more do-able and boosts up the optimist mood inside me ^^
well, here they are, the final 4 :
1. Think! Think! Think! Before Talk!
this IS the worst habit of mine! the worst! i hate it, but i keep doing it again and again… sometimes it could be fun and people think i’m staright forward {i am…} but most of the time… i just look plain stupid. because i tend to spit out words before my brain starts to process the conversation, i also sound like a smartass biyatch. not good! so… i’ll take my time, keep my comments and process my line before i say it out loud…
2. Finding My Mr. Right
okay… i hate to put this one in! but i have to admit, the last 15 months i’ve been thinking a lot about partnership. i need one. that one that’ll last forever… because i need to share things, thoughts, fears, joys, hopes and tears. i guess it’s just my time… so… i’ll be more serious and selective toward guys since i’ve set my goal!
ps: and you! yeah you! please feel free to help me ^^
3. Loose 15 More Kilos
too ambitious… way too ambitious! but hell! i’ve never been proud of my body… never. and the way i look right now, failed to make me proud too. but the real goal of this resolution is finding a way to fall in love with me {my body} no matter how i look {how much i weight}. to embrace every little imperfections in me. hopefully!
4. Save More Money!
yeah baby! save money… i’ve failed to do this since my first salary ever! which is kinda embarassing… i’m 24, talking about having my own life, away from my parents, yet i’m still a parasite in their financial plans. crap! i really need to be free and settle, and able to control my greed for fashion items… this is hard! 5 days after new year, i’ve been sticking my eyes to the cutest ankle boots ever in Zara… owh well… slow down {but sure! keep focus}
nah… i think that’s all for 2009! and to be honest again… creating this resolution is fun! i recommend you all to make one… it’s fun and it lets you know yourselves better.
what’s yours? care to share?
